i am just going to keep taking every single pill until there is nothing left of me any more.
i do not deserve to exist.
"I feel nothing
I feel everything.
I don’t know which is worse."
it doesn’t seem to matter how many cuts or how long i go without eating or how many pills i swallow the guilt and how terrible i am and was won’t go away.
maybe I’ll just keep overdosing until I’m gone for good.